June 15, 2007

Sorry to bother you, Rhea, with my personal issues. But I just wanted to know what you thought - from the woman's standpoint - just as I gave you my male thoughts on certain aspects.Perhaps it is that I would feel quezy being with Tamela around anyone - I would be constantly wondering if they knew about her! And I well know that feeling - out in public I am always wondering if anyone knows I have lost part of my maleness. And if she (should I be saying "she," or "he," or perhaps "it?") was just not so darn good-looking! I have a hard time admitting to myself that I think such a biological oddity is attractive.As far as the issue of sex, Muriel has not mentioned anything concerning that. All that Muriel has discussed with me is my spending some time with Tamela - taking her shopping, to a show, to eat, etc. - because Muriel felt Tamela was lonely (I can see why she would be!) I certainly hope no one is considering a sexual encounter! Two freaks would be too much!Incubus

June 18, 2007

Hi Brother Joe,

Just a weird thought & question - If Tamela went to "mess with me," (try to fuck me) - and no, there has been no indication of anything like this, I am just having thoughts - and in a struggle to avoid this I jacked her off to keep her from doing so, would this be considered rape? My raping her?

Thanks,
Brother Eunuch

June 15, 2007

Hi Joe,

I hope all is going well. I'm glad you are experiencing the power that comes from controlling a woman's clitoris.

This is the 2nd weekend in a row that Muriel does not have a match. She informed me yesterday that she has invited Tamela over tonight for dinner with us. I told Muriel, again, that I really do not want to have anything to do with this "person," but Muriel insists. She says Tamela does not have that many friends, and we need to "take her under our wing." So I guess I will have to eat tonight as I look across my table at this "shemale."

Let me know how things are going.
Your Eunuch brother.

June 16, 2007 evening

Hi Joe,

I just got my weekly milking. Tamela is still with us. Muriel & her had just gotten back from shopping - I was already home from work. Muriel just suddenly out and says, "Oh Baby, I have to take care of you, come on upstairs and get undressed." I tried to mumble something, but as it was coming out of my mouth, Muriel excused herself to Tamela and took me by the hand and led me upstairs.

I undress down to my jockey strap, and got on my knees and hands on the bed. Muriel reached and pulled the cloth back from my penis and placed the bowl directly under it. She then lubricated an anal stimulator and proceeded to slowly insert it into me. She then worked and caressed my body with her hands while she pumped me. Finally a steady thin stream of fluid began to flow into the bowl. I hoped it would not be much because I knew I would have to drink it.

Afterwards I took a bath, redressed, and joined the two downstairs to prepare for dinner. I felt exceptionally sore. And I wondered what Tamela thought we were doing upstairs. One change for sure - I don't feel as stimulated by looking at Tamela's body anymore. My sexual interest has subsided.

Brother Eunuch

June 16, 2007

Hi Joe,

I had visited a bondage club a couple of times - just to see what all was going on - a year or so ago. There was not much "bondage" taking place, but they were really into spanking. Like you, I never cared for that myself, and it does not "turn me on." But apparently it does stimulate your wife, so let her have her pleasure. You both will not always like or dislike the same behaviors, but love is a process of give & take. So perhaps it might just be best to grit your teeth and take the spankings. Because remember - you now have the power of controlling that special little knot of tissue that can drive her up a wall! Take more & more control of her clitoris. Sometime as you are manipulating it, you might even suggest to her that the spankings decrease somewhat - I promise you she will agree if you have her in your mouth! Work her, Joe, to your advantage.

As for last night, I was greatly surprised! Muriel, Tamela, & I had a quite pleasant evening. Tamela arrived about an hour before dinner - it was somewhat awkward for a short while making conversation with "her," since the extent of our previous interaction has been a "hello" as Muriel & I would see her in some store. But Tamela proved to be an excellent conversationalist, and before long I sort of forgot about the "other" part of her. We had a fantastic seafood dinner, and afterwards flopped in front of the TV, not really paying attention to what was on the screen, but just joking & chatting with one another. I will admit that the miniskirt & attractive legs of Tamela was somewhat of a distraction.

Around 10-11pm, Muriel took Tamela to our guest room to get her settled in for the night, while I retired to my desk to finish some paperwork. Muriel & I then turned in for the night and fell immediately to sleep - zonked from all the evening. As I am typing this now, Muriel is still asleep (she always sleeps late on Sat., and the "creature" is asleep down the hall. I will be leaving shortly for work - they plan to spend the day spending my money shopping. So I guess I will have to admit that it was Tamela's company turned out to be a pleasant addition to our evening.

One concern, Joe, before I end this message. You mentioned in previous messages about your wife making you cum? Is this without intercourse, and if so, how often, and in what manner? I mention this because if you will remember from a link I think I sent you, taking my cum eventually became a method whereby Melanie weakened me, both physically & psychologically. Forced milking can be pleasurable, it can also be destructive if carried too far. I have learned over these years that our fluids are an integral part of our maleness. We "shoot it" when we decide. Be cautious about it being decided for you when you should give it up, and how often.

Your brother, the Eunuch.
And thanks, Joe

May 29, 2007

Rhea,

I hope all is going well with you and Joe with your sexual adventures. Have you considered the long range activities that you would like to have in place after your successful weekend? You have managed to bring about these sexual pleasures under the conditions of a holiday weekend, but you surely would want to retain some of that fun as the work week comes back into play.

Concerning the shaving of Joe - perhaps you might want to consider allowing his hair to grow back on his arms, legs, etc., but keep the genital area smoothly shaved at all times. This way, Joe would retain the dignity that he feels his hair gives him while he is in presence of his colleagues or anyone else he would encounter throughout the day. But it could still be seen as a form of submission to you. Mel used to keep my pubic area shaved as a way to indicate that area was "special," and she felt it gave her easier access to what she was always describing as "hers."

Since you do not have children in your home, brief, or no, clothing on Joe throughout the night might also be something to consider. Excuse the crudeness of this example, but sometimes Muriel would like for me to be naked at night around the house, but walking around with me penis waving about is not always comfortable, so she has me to wear a jockey strap. This way my penis is held in place, but at the same time Muriel has immediate access when she wants to utilize her dildo belt.

Again, these are just thoughts that came to my mind. You seem to be doing quite well on your own, so if you wish me to not send such messages when I think of things, please tell me.

Again, I hope all is continuing to go well. Thank you for sharing this portion of your life with me.

Incubus

May 28, 2007 message to Rhea

Rhea,

You really appear to be doing well. I'm glad to see that apparently the spanking session was enjoyable and productive. Perhaps Joe's change in demeanor is a sort of "reverse psychology" to obtain that ultimate climax - if he doesn't want you to do it, then maybe you will!

As for your orgasms, it might be a good idea to reduce the number that you allow Joe to give you each day - you don't want to become "desensitized" by too much of a good thing.

Unfortunately I will not be able to schedule a specific time when I will be back on the computer to see Joe in the device - I will be going out of state in a short while, and will probably be out of state for most of the day. (Yes, I have to work on Memorial Day.) Muriel & I did our cooking out last night. My poor Lady lost her match (the girl who beat her must have been a real monster) and returned home in a down mood. She was fairly well cut up & bruised, so I tend to her wounds, assisted her with bathing, and then performed a verrrrrrrrry slow & verrrrrrrry light licking & sucking on her clitoris until she climaxed and then fell to sleep. She then slept for most of yesterday (Sunday), and then got up and began to grill. We sat in the garden until late last night enjoying the evening coolness. I know, Rhea, it is strange how I can care as I do for someone who had done what happened to me.

You mentioned not reading any messages between Joe & I (if there are anymore). Occasionally I may send him something that I would like for you to read as well. In those cases I will address a BCC to you - if that is agreeable with you.

Keep up your good work, and most of all, keep it enjoyable.
Incubus

June 06, 2007

Hi Joe,

What you say in your message sounds great! Your wife taking control That definitely shows a care for you because she wants to show that you are hers! Your "privates" are only private to others, but they belong to her to do as she may. Didn't you somewhat like it as she handled them while in the process of shaving you? And I don't think I saw the mention of it in your message, but did she take you? Did she make you cum? Did she allow you that all-important feeling? And does your being shaved down there really make you "inferior," or as I mentioned, does it just mean she is tending to what is hers? - As what she has is yours!

Did you feel the weight of your penis moving around, as I mentioned in my message, as you were bound? Please tell me more about this new "spice" that has been added into your relationship.

June 05, 2007

Joe,

You mentioned things in your last message that are so similar to feelings I had of someone else in control of my body. And even what you mention concerning the joy & pleasure of ejaculation was recognizable. In our latter stages Melanie came to realize that I would do, or say, anything to get to cum inside of her - or even cum outside of her!

That night in the hotel room, as Muriel and the "Cutter" were doing things to me down there to prepare me (I did not want to look down), I could tell by the feeling of weight of my penis that I was becoming erect. However I did not want this erection - I thought it should not be happening under these circumstances! When I was being fucked (raped), I was screaming inside (I have continually questioned myself as to why I did not do this out loud) to not let go of my precious fluid, but it was being taken without my wiliness. And I knew this was prelude to the taking of what had made me a man all these years.

Now I struggle everyday with what I have become - a Eunuch.

Please let me know about this event that happened to you, and your feelings. Is there to be more?

June 04, 2007

From: "Locker Jock" To: "Incubus" Subject: RE: unpleasant thoughtsDate: Mon, 4 Jun 2007 11:13:53 -0700Yeah, that sounds like a very unpleasant experience.
It must be awful to be so helpless that you cant prevent your
own balls from being perjmanently removed.
Fuck!
Since you are being honest with me and trusting me with some of
your most humiliating and embarrassing experiences,
I will share with you that I, too, have experienced what it is
like to be bound spread-eagle on the bed, with my dick &
balls exposed;
yes, I, too, like yourself, strained in my bonds
but I could not escape while pain was being given to my balls.
The thought that my dick and balls were being controlled by
another person (instead of by me) was new to me.
And the realization that with another person in control of my
dick and balls, pleasuring my sex organs was also no longer
under my control; and, in fact, the other person not only could
deprive me of pleasuring my dick and balls but also punish me
down there.
As someone always in control of myself I learned fast that to
'survive' the terrible moment I needed to obey and submit so
that, once the person in control of me would realize that I
would be docile they would not punish me anymore.
So I can only imagine how afraid you were when you got injected
and then the cutting started.
I have come to appreciate even more having my dick and balls,
and cannot imagine the devastated feeling of losing them
forever. Cumming for me has always been my goal. I have enjoyed
cumming since puberty, any time, anywhere, with anyone, or even
by myself. (now my memory is triggered: my first time cumming I
was on my back with my hard dick stickingout through the fly of
my boxer underwear. I jacked myself for the first time, and shot
a big fucking load of cum. It sprayed in globs all over my belly
and soaked into my thick pubes above my dick. Oh, that wasa
great feeling, and ever since I have lived to feel that
intensity.
Joe
P.S. That last memory was from my adolescence. I didnt share it
with you to make you feel bad that you cant cum anymore. Forgive
me. I dont want you to misunderstand why I shared it. I hope you
are o.k. with my telling that to you. if it upset you, just tell
me and I will apologize and make it up to you.
----- Original Message -----
From: Incubus
To: Joe
Sent: 6/4/2007 3:10:42 AM
Subject: unpleasant thoughts
Joe,
The last portion of your message caused me to think once again
of that horrid night - bound spread-eagle on the bed, with my
genitals exposed to the world - becoming groggy from the shot I
had been given, but realizing that people were handling me down
there - without my wanting them to do so. And the fear of what
they were going to do to me - and strain as I could, no escape.

June 03, 2007

Hi Joe,

Muriel & I just got into town. I accompanied her to her match for this weekend. I did not go with her last week, and she got fairly well mauled, so this week she insisted I go along - fortunately she won!

I have not had time to get to taking a more detailed pic of my genital area, but I will get to it at first opportunity.

When you originally e-mailed me, you mentioned being interested in castration, so I will mention something unusual. You know about the "phantom limb syndrome - where amputees occasionally feel something in a limb that is no longer there, like an itch that needs scratching? Well, this is the second time I have experienced a "phantom testicle" sensation. It feels like what men call a case of the "blue-balls." I have been taking my hormone medicine regularly, and watching the women wrestle is very stimulating - and last night I began to feel an ache - like an aching to have my semen released. This is the 2nd time I have had this sensation. I felt like my testicles were sore to the touch, but of course that could not be!
I just thought this was interesting, and thought I would tell you.

I hope all is well with you.

May 31, 2007

Hi Joe,

Thanks for the message. I hope you & your family had a pleasant & enjoyable Memorial Weekend.

I didn't know if I would heard from you again. It will probably be this weekend again before I try to take some more pictures - please don't show those I sent to anyone I tried to cut my face out of the photo because I do not want anyone to associate that limp penis with me.

I think I am finally putting some of the links together to form a scenario starting with early days with my Mom to the current events with Muriel. And thank you, for some of the credit goes to you for suggesting reasons behind certain behaviors. There are still many pieces of the puzzle missing at present, but I think in time I will have a coherent picture.

I have seen cases of repressed thoughts coming back into the consciousness after years - activated by various environmental events. I use to not give much credence to this phenomena, but I may be changing my opinion on this matter. Sometime I will share some of these early mother/son memories with you.

message to Rhea

Rhea,

I hope all is going well with you and Joe with your sexual adventures. Have you considered the long range activities that you would like to have in place after your successful weekend? You have managed to bring about these sexual pleasures under the conditions of a holiday weekend, but you surely would want to retain some of that fun as the work week comes back into play.

Concerning the shaving of Joe - perhaps you might want to consider allowing his hair to grow back on his arms, legs, etc., but keep the genital area smoothly shaved at all times. This way, Joe would retain the dignity that he feels his hair gives him while he is in presence of his colleagues or anyone else he would encounter throughout the day. But it could still be seen as a form of submission to you. Mel used to keep my pubic area shaved as a way to indicate that area was "special," and she felt it gave her easier access to what she was always describing as "hers."

Since you do not have children in your home, brief, or no, clothing on Joe throughout the night might also be something to consider. Excuse the crudeness of this example, but sometimes Muriel would like for me to be naked at night around the house, but walking around with me penis waving about is not always comfortable, so she has me to wear a jockey strap. This way my penis is held in place, but at the same time Muriel has immediate access when she wants to utilize her dildo belt.

Again, these are just thoughts that came to my mind. You seem to be doing quite well on your own, so if you wish me to not send such messages when I think of things, please tell me.

Again, I hope all is continuing to go well. Thank you for sharing this portion of your life with me.

Incubus