June 04, 2007

From: "Locker Jock" To: "Incubus" Subject: RE: unpleasant thoughtsDate: Mon, 4 Jun 2007 11:13:53 -0700Yeah, that sounds like a very unpleasant experience.
It must be awful to be so helpless that you cant prevent your
own balls from being perjmanently removed.
Fuck!
Since you are being honest with me and trusting me with some of
your most humiliating and embarrassing experiences,
I will share with you that I, too, have experienced what it is
like to be bound spread-eagle on the bed, with my dick &
balls exposed;
yes, I, too, like yourself, strained in my bonds
but I could not escape while pain was being given to my balls.
The thought that my dick and balls were being controlled by
another person (instead of by me) was new to me.
And the realization that with another person in control of my
dick and balls, pleasuring my sex organs was also no longer
under my control; and, in fact, the other person not only could
deprive me of pleasuring my dick and balls but also punish me
down there.
As someone always in control of myself I learned fast that to
'survive' the terrible moment I needed to obey and submit so
that, once the person in control of me would realize that I
would be docile they would not punish me anymore.
So I can only imagine how afraid you were when you got injected
and then the cutting started.
I have come to appreciate even more having my dick and balls,
and cannot imagine the devastated feeling of losing them
forever. Cumming for me has always been my goal. I have enjoyed
cumming since puberty, any time, anywhere, with anyone, or even
by myself. (now my memory is triggered: my first time cumming I
was on my back with my hard dick stickingout through the fly of
my boxer underwear. I jacked myself for the first time, and shot
a big fucking load of cum. It sprayed in globs all over my belly
and soaked into my thick pubes above my dick. Oh, that wasa
great feeling, and ever since I have lived to feel that
intensity.
Joe
P.S. That last memory was from my adolescence. I didnt share it
with you to make you feel bad that you cant cum anymore. Forgive
me. I dont want you to misunderstand why I shared it. I hope you
are o.k. with my telling that to you. if it upset you, just tell
me and I will apologize and make it up to you.
----- Original Message -----
From: Incubus
To: Joe
Sent: 6/4/2007 3:10:42 AM
Subject: unpleasant thoughts
Joe,
The last portion of your message caused me to think once again
of that horrid night - bound spread-eagle on the bed, with my
genitals exposed to the world - becoming groggy from the shot I
had been given, but realizing that people were handling me down
there - without my wanting them to do so. And the fear of what
they were going to do to me - and strain as I could, no escape.