You just don't know!

Joe,

What is this - everyone around me tells me what to do? I told you I would send you a picture - give me a chance to take one! Actually I am not exactly for such a sight to get out anyway. I told you I was pleased with its appearance, but that doesn't mean I want others to have a pic of my penis! Besides, you have made me aware of its atrophy, which I have sought to not see.

And what you really don't understand it that I know Muriel is constantly worried about losing the good deal she has (after all, Melanie did). All I need is for her to find out that I am talking with anyone about our relationship, female or male. I am not trying to be dramatic, but I am going to say this in all honesty - I know she would rather kill me than lose me.

I don't know if you are quitting reading my messages, or paying attention to them, but as soon as I can find it, I am going to send you a message from a woman about how she destroyed her husbands genitals & sex drive.

Hump Day

Joe,

I don't know if you are even reading these messages anymore, but I will take some photos Sat. - Muriel has another match this weekend and she will leave that morning. I used to be proud of my pecker's length & girth, but now you are making it something to ridicule. It still looks somewhat good, but it is apparent that it is changing, and for the worse.

I really wanted & appreciated your comments & suggestions - I told you I do not have many I can share any of this with.

And just when it seems my life is going smoothly, like when Muriel got home Monday, things get bizarre again. Muriel told me last night about a friend, Lauren, who is having marital difficulties at this time. It seems that Lauren is an oral sex addict, and now that her and her husband are separated, she is not being satisfied. Muriel just came right out and told me she had told Lauren that she would have me to perform oral sex on Lauren as needed, and to contact me to arrange meeting times. I was floored! Farming me out? I told Muriel that I could not do this - I don't even know Lauren. And besides, Lauren would then know about my castration. Muriel replied that Lauren already knows - Muriel told her. And even though Lauren will not be able to suck me off, her satisfaction would be enough. When I became angry and refused to be a part of such, Muriel just calmly told me that perhaps some extended time underwater in the bathtub would be necessary if I don't do as she asks. She told me to "quit acting silly" and just take Lauren's call when it comes, and nothing more was said the rest of the night.

Joe, I can't keep all this up

May 21, 2007

Hi Joe,

Well here I am - sitting here naked! I will snap you a photo of "down there" soon and sent it to you. However that seems so crude to send another man a pic of my pecker!

I am soon to be leaving for the airport to pick up Muriel. As I mentioned in a previous message, I know as soon as she gets in the house and bathes, she will want some "activity" of some sort - I just hope she is not too demanding. And I need to take my HRT meds.

When you asked the other day about whether my penis was shrinking, I thought of a message a woman sent about shrinking her husband's genitals - I will find a copy and send it to you.

I have the IM installed now - I think. But to be honest, I really do not know how to instant message, for I never used that function. What do I now do so we may talk in real time? That is, if you think it is a good idea.

If you have read any of those stories, you see what I meant - you were correct in the theme of most of them. I so miss our role playing.

Have a good day Joe - thanks for your acceptance of all this I have thrown your way. Those I wish to discuss all this with can be counted on one hand.